Bet I Bust

11May10

Hi, sticky buns!

On any given morning, I wake up with a different dream. Today, the dream came as clear as Brita-filtered water.

“I want to go to San Francisco.”

It was my first real thought of the day (other than, “What day is it?”). Closely following this, I read Brooke‘s latest post. For those of you who are newer readers, I spent last summer in San Francisco. By week, I was an editorial assistant for VegNews. By weekend, I was part of the Chick Mafia, rolling around San Fran with Brooke-baby and Britt. I realize that what I’m about to say is highly clichΓ©, but it was the best summer of my life. It was the best three months of my life, actually. During the week I did what I love: writing, editing, proofing, fact-checking, researching, working with the best people. And during the weekends, I, well, just take a look at these posts!

Today, my plan is to go to San Francisco. Tomorrow, the destination will be New York City. Thursday, I don’t know what my plan will be. It’s very much “love me, love me not/San Francisco, New York” petals on my next-step-of-life flower, and I don’t know on which petal I’ll land.

But as Bobby Ray, B.o.B., says:

Just put me anywhere on the map with a backpack strapped, and I bet I bust.

I regard rap to be poetry (you can laugh), and to me, by “bust,” he means to blow it out of the water, be successful, be amazing, have a great time. If you suggest anything sexual or drug-related, I am disregarding your comment. Poetry, people.

But anyway, these were my musings ALL day. These posts may get weirder and weirder the closer I get to graduation. My apologies.

I managed to eat my way through my day-dreaming, though. It started with a bossy breakfast:

There's yogurt in there.

In the bowl: container vanilla Chobani, half a banana, Whole-O’s, cinnamon and peanut butter. Wonderful crunchy, creamy, sweet and salty concoction:

Peeking.

At 11am, we had a gigantic group presentation on Augusto Boal for Theatahhh. It went very well! No one’s afraid to talk when you’re in a class with bunches of theatre majors.

Afterward, I worked it out and daydreamed for 60 minutes of intervals on the elliptical. I didn’t intend to stay on for so long, but I had to finish the latest issue of VegNews. (Signs left and right!) Following the cardio session was AAA (arms, abs, a$$).

Hangry does not even begin to describe what was going on in the deep dungeon of my stomach when I got home. Thankfully, I brainstormed what I wanted the entire 20-minute walk home.

First up, a light salad dressing:

POM, Bragg's liquid aminos, Newman's balsamic.

This lovely mixture then coated the salad of a lifetime. Dramatic? Why yes, you already knew that about me:

The Chapple Salad.

I like to completely undermine the deliciousness of something by giving it an absurd name. Chapple may sound like a disease one captures from riding dirty (or maybe it sounds like “chapel,” in which case, I’m sincerely sorry if I’ve offended anyone), but I assure you this is merely the combination of cherry and apple.

In the chapple salad: mixed baby greens, romaine, snap peas, chopped apple, dried cherries, sunflower seeds and pomegranate vinaigrette. Freshly-cracked pepper is essential to a ferosh salad, and dried cherries are simply gasmic:

The complex chapple landscape.

To make sure my lunch wasn’t too classy, I rounded out the greens with Tofurkey roll-ups:

That would be light mayo in there. I am not ashamed. (Right? Right. <-- Me, reassuring myself.)

For dessert and carbage (definitely not garbage, despite their rhymage):

Two Mi-Del grahams with peanut butter and strawberry preserves.

Do not be fooled by that photograph. These grahams are small:

Which is why I had two more throughout the afternoon.

A G-chat session and job application later, my afternoon was interrupted by my man friend. He came over to hang out and eat his Chipotle.

I’ve received many questions about said friend, and truth be told, I’m not sure how much I want to share. This is my blog. My space. He reads. My friends read. My parents read. My friends’ parents read. This is such a weird time in my/our lives, too, with graduation quickly approaching. Please refer to the top of the post for my already intense confusion. Is anything solid right now? No. That’s all for now.

By the time my man friend left, it was 5:45pm and I still hadn’t showered. That is disgusting. Stale sweat soaking into my pores, staining my clothes, permeating its stench in my hair and clothing for hours. YUM!

That thought totally made me hungry for a pre-shower mini-meal:

Strikingly similar to breakfast.

Sometimes I feel like a nut. Actually, that’s not true. I’m always a bit nutty. But really, today I wanted peanut butter like cray! So I took care of that. Also, every few weeks I treat myself to some cottage cheese. I don’t know why I limit myself like that to something I enjoy so much. Mmm in the bowl: scoops of cottage cheese, half a banana, cinnamon, stevia and peanut butter. I went back for more. My 16 oz. container is now gone.

The shower finally happened after that. It was super decadent to slip right into my pajamas post-shower.

Come dinner time, I wasn’t really meal-hungry. Only SnackFace hungry:

An almost-accurate rainbow. Red, orange, GREEN, yellow. Damn. Can't even get Roy G. Biv straight.

See that side plate for dipping purposes? Had my embarrassing little pleasure on it:

Light mayo and sweet n' spicy mustard.

I told myself for years that I did not like mayo or anything creamy. I only told myself this because the magazines I love so dearly told me that they were bad for me, and that if I wanted to be fit, I couldn’t eat these. Not so, my doves. I suppose I’m making up for lost time. My mental state, and therefore bodily state, is healthier than it’s ever been, and I accredit many creamy things to this. (Oh, how wrong did that sound?)

A trillion mugs of cereal were consumed after dinner and throughout a daunting homework task. This was daunting only because of my hairy, smelly friend Senioritis. You may know him.

Now I’m off to continue day and night dreaming about my next destination, my next step, my next meal.

Ciao for now,

Kailey

QUESTIONS: Which city holds your fondest memories? AND Anyone else iffy about your next step? AND Are you a dreamer? (I bet I know the answer to the last Q!)

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60 Responses to “Bet I Bust”

  1. 1 Ilana

    Babygirl, six months ago I had NO IDEA what direction I was going in AT ALL and it felt like the worst thing in the world – really paralyzing. Leaving school is such a conflicting thing to do! Sometimes I still don’t know where I’m going but I’m confident that if I just keep walking, I’ll get there eventually. Same goes for you.

    And which city holds my fondest memories? My city. New York City. I can’t walk anywhere without having about a hundred different flashbacks.

    Does the last question really need an answer? Dreamer may well be my first name.

    Don’t fret too much about where you’re headed! When the times right, the answer will appear to you, and you’ll probably have known it all along anyway.

    XOXO
    Ilana

  2. 2 Heather

    For years I dreamed of moving to NYC. I finally got the courage to apply to Columbia University and I just found out this week that I got in for the fall, but sadly I will not be attending because it costs an absurd amount for tuition and I just can’t reconcile the debt load. So I’ll be there eventually, just not as soon as I’d hoped.

    You have to follow your dreams! I hope you decided which coast you will end up on first. Good Luck with finals!

  3. I feel ya girlie. I was and often still in the phase of daydreaming about the future and wanting to move home to ny or out west to SF (where my man is from). Right now I am stuck in the middle but know that it will eventually bring me to where I want to be once I get enough control within my career. No worries about keeping the man friend a secret, I think thats a smart choice!

  4. I have some uncertainty where I will end up and my specialty in a year or so and it freaks me out but excites me at the same time. I seriously need to try your amazing tofurkey + salad combo, it looks delicious.

  5. Yes, move to SF! I’m moving to Sacramento in August – we cam be real like friends! πŸ˜‰

    But seriously, I know how scary/confusing it is to be staring graduation in the face and not know where you’re going. I was there 2 1/2 years ago myself. Right in the middle of my confusion I read a proverb that brought me some comfort. “For the path of the righteous is like the first gleam of the morning son, becoming ever brighter until the full light of day.” (Proverbs 4:18) I may not have all the answers but I’ll just keep going, keep seeking Truth and little by little, God will reveal His plan for me. I trust that He’ll do that for you too!

    After college graduation I moved to a new city, signed a 6 month lease and told myself that if I hated it, I could always go back home (and live with my parents). But I didn’t go home; I got engaged, got married, stayed in the city far away from “home” and together we’re embarking on the aforementioned cross-country moving adventure this summer. Its incredible to think that we have no idea what the future holds…I’m excited for this time in your life, sweet girl!!

  6. 6 Anna

    I think I daydream more than I am in reality. Is that a bad thing? I dunno if I can just pick one city. New York is freaking incredible, but I feel like EVERYONE wants to live there, so I don’t usually say it as my first choice (even tho it is πŸ˜‰ ) I’ve had some very memorable times in the beautiful New England. I’m from Arizona so us desert-dwellers get amazed by the sight of anything green. I’m studying in Spain this next semester, so I’ll probably fall in love with Madrid. So true what you say about changing your mind day by day. Story of my life. I’ve def been on a pb binge as well! Is tofurkey really THAT good? I’m skeptical πŸ˜‰

  7. 7 alexandria

    CHICAAAAAAAGO. oh! ❀ i moved there from my small town in the middle of nowhere to smack dab in downtown chicago, knowing absolutely no one. oh & i was 18. it was scary and it was crazy but it was where i found ME. i learned more & grew more than i could have ever thought in those 2 years i spent there. i fell in LOVE there….and in more ways than one. with a boy, yes but also with LIFE. whether my life leads me back to that amazing city or not, i'll always always always remember that windy city where my heart came alive.

  8. 8 Little Bookworm

    Love this post – I’m definitely a dreamer. πŸ™‚

  9. Fondest memory city = NYC.

    And yes, a dreamer too!

  10. you are so right about this time in your life i remember graduating from college and feeling so lost! i had no idea what my future was going tohold, and I was just a stress ball! I still don’t knwo what I want to be when I grow up, but feel a bit more stable

    I think what you said is perfect…this is your space your blog, you share exactly what you want to, and no one better give you shi*t about it!

    YES I am a dreamer

    place with the fondest memories? Costa Rica! my moms family lives thre and I grew up going twice a year!

  11. 11 Lia

    It’s gotta be London.
    It was the first time I’ve ever been to England and me and my best friend were completely obsessed with England in general.
    For new years we went on those crappy bus rides (I’m from Germany btw but live in the UK now) to celebrate NYE there.
    It was magical, I was really ill but didn’t care.
    We went out, bought tons of stuff in Virgin store, looked through shops and were amazed. We then bought tons of new to us sweets and had the most amazing time!

    Obviously now I see London differently and the magic is kind of gone but I still remember those two days as one of the best in my life.

    Now I have a dream of living somewhere in France, drinking wine all day and get completely melancholic πŸ™‚

  12. I love that salad dressing you mixed up!

    I am SUCH a dreamer. My hubby is not. We make a good mix, but he doesn’t understand how I can dream about everything and anything that I want. H is a realist. I am good for him. πŸ™‚

  13. Oh darling, trying to plan out our lives is seriously pointless. True, we can anticipate and set a plan, but it’s pretty much guaranteed that life will throw us a curve ball along the way. The best we can do is just go along for the ride! πŸ™‚

    I am definitely a dreamer. My husband likes to call me irrational at times, but I just say I am optimistic! πŸ˜‰

    Enjoy your day love bug!

  14. 14 Rachel

    LOVE B.o.B, definitely poetry right there, when your gut is telling you something, you do it.

    I guess a city close to me is NYC since i’m from long island. By the way, when you go -if you’re near the Ripley’s Believe It Or Not museum, sometimes they have a sword swallower performing free shows outside. I imagine swords don’t taste as good as peanut butter.

    You’re really making me want to subscribe to Vegnews! It may have to be done now that my vegetarian times subscription is up (which is literally just realized as I type this, way to go)

  15. 15 Amy D

    I can totally relate to this post at the moment. I just graduated this weekend and when all the dust & debris settled from my celebrations I realized that on Monday morning I didn’t have anything to do! So I slept in, took my oatmeal to bed with me, read a little, slept some more & then when lounging became too overwhelming I went into manic cover-letter writing mode! I truly wish I had the ambition to want to explore another state/city but I think Ohio might be where my heart hangs for awhile. But, as for you, dream big! I think I speak for all your readers when I say that we’ll be looking forward to you chronically your bright future. Oh, and what you eat too. LOL!

    Oh, and gurl, I totally respect your decision to keep some aspects of your private life under wraps. In today’s world it only makes sense! And, besides, I’m loving the mystery. πŸ™‚ Get it girl!

  16. Girl, I have a whole year before I graduate and I’m freaking out about what I want to do. You’re a smart, beautiful girl with a good head on her shoulders- you’ll figure it out in time πŸ™‚ NYC holds my newest memories, but Paris will always be the city that steals my heart. I never realized how lucky I was to spend so much time there as a kid until we stopped our annual four-month trips.

    I am definitely a dreamer, so much so that it sometimes interferes with my ability to go out and just LIVE, instead of thinking of what my life COULD be. I’ve realized lately that my life is pretty darn perfect, so I should stop trying to think of scenarios that would make it “better.”

    Hope you have a wonderful week lovely!

  17. You know, I want anti-creamy for SO long… screw the magazines. I love me some cream sauce… in moderation, of course πŸ˜‰

    I am a HUGE dreamer. There are so many things I want to do I don’t know WHAT to do first. New York City holds some incredible memories. I used to spend my birthday there every year and dream about living there for college, or after. I never made it to living in NYC, but I did end up in Italy, which was fabulous, but not a forever-type affair, and now I am in Toronto and it is love. The problem? I am American. So staying in Canada ain’t so easy. Stay tuned for my next step. πŸ˜‰

    xo
    K

  18. 18 jenna

    well you know your guy really lovea ya if he will hang out with you and thinks your pretty after you just got back from the gym! i think hes a keeper and i totally understand you not wanting to share lots of details about him! you already share so much about your life on here πŸ™‚
    jenna

  19. 19 kirsten

    Graduating from college in ’07 was a huge transition time for me. me and my husband (then bf) picked a suburb outside NYC (westchester county) so we could leave the door open to work in the city. I ended up getting a job in stamford, ct, which is a much nicer commute. All of my college friends live in brooklyn and work in NYC which they love but it just wasn’t for me. If you do move to NYC you should look into brooklyn living (esp. park slope, so cute) it’s a very young/professional type crowd. I would go with SF though, NY weather can be brutal.

    good luck lady! I’m sure you will get a kick ass job, any magazine would be lucky to have you! πŸ™‚

    • 20 kevinvond

      Kirsten, If you don’t mind me asking, how did you find your Westchester/CT set up? Is there anything you would have done differently? Are you happy in general with the town where you ended up living? Or knowing what you know now you would have chosen a bit differently.

  20. Hey, I just found your blog and I love it! I canΒ΄t believe I havenΒ΄t been here before.

    When I graduated college, or when I was coming up to that point, I had no idea what to do! Stay in Los Angeles, or move back to New York, or go abroad? I ended up choosing to join the Peace Corps and move to Mozambique. Normal, I know. Well now I have less than six months left in Moz and I am going through the whole thing AGAIN! It is exciting and scary at the same time, to feel the world wide open in front of you! But follow your heart girl!

  21. 22 Jenny

    My hometown area – Clearwater/Tampa does, but I want to live in Colorado! One day:) we’ll see…. I am a dreamer!

  22. Cairns/Brisbane/Sydney/Melbourne/Adelaide…oh how I wish I could return to Australia. Or Miami/Orlando. Fondest memories ever.

    Next step? Pishah…I can’t even get my foot out there.

    Dreamer? with all the time i have alone…i better be.

  23. Reasons I love this post:

    1. Lots of peanut butter.
    2. You acknowledged your man friend reads…and then went on to describe how stanky you were. <– awesome
    3. Cottage cheese = yum.
    4. "…I accredit many creamy things to this."
    5. I am SUCH a dreamer, too.

    Sometimes it pisses me off that I'm a dreamer. I just want someone to jerk my head out of the clouds and make me go do something logical and rational. I'd venture to say, though, that this dreaming does us good in some realms of life. (Dreamers = bloggers?)

    Kailey, you're gonna do BIG THANGS. I swear to you I'm not just saying that. Your talent is undeniable, and your determination is gonna make you go far, girl. Get EXCITED about what the future holds post-graduation…because it holds good things! πŸ™‚

  24. Rap is like chicken soup for my soul, lol.

    Those Tofurky roll ups look soooo good! I LOVE Tofurky, LOVE it. That salad looks amazing, too. YUM πŸ˜€

    Jenn

  25. 26 elleneatsbeets

    hands down I would LOVE to move back to SF. the 6 months I spent there were the best ever. I loved my job, my friends, the city, just everything. I tell everyone to go to SF, and since you already have, I’m telling you to go back ad live it up for me!! Such a wonderful city, full of amazing people and things to do. It where I want to be when I finally graduate.

    and oh boy do I daydream. Dear lord its insane.

  26. Every now and then I dream about random bloggers and am happy to say, the other night, you were one of them!! Oh and we were drinking wine in San Francisco. <— you never know!

  27. Every single time I apply for a job I imagine how fabulous life will be to live in the whatever city it may be in! I love New York, deeply and completely, but I am an adventurous dreamer and I’m not so sure that I want to settle in my familiar city right away. Then again, I can’t imagine living too far away from the Big Apple. I’ve decided to let fate and chance make the locale decision for me and simply enjoy twenty-something “grown-up” life, wherever it may lead me.

  28. 29 Sana

    Follow your dreams! Move to SF. Take man friend with you!!

  29. 30 Rebecca

    First off, rap IS poetry. Done.

    Second, I have no idea where I’m going…still. It’s so stressful. I cry. I feel sick. Etc. BUT. Don’t you think people who go through this–who question things and go through being very “unsettled”–are WAY more interesting, cool people than those who don’t??? That’s what I try to remember when I feel awful about directionlessness. Would I WANT to be someone whose whole life is nailed down already–who never thinks about a different path? Nah. Boring.

    Embrace it! Easier said than done, I know, but you’ve got the right strategy. When in doubt, rap soothes the soul!

  30. 31 evan

    New York definitely holds my best memories, but I’ve never spent the summer in San Fran, which is where I want to be ultimately. It’s where I’ve spent college and therefore had my wild n’ crazy college times and learned my lessons.

    Honestly, EVERYTHING is uncertain right now, Kailey. I have a “job” covering a food editor on maternity leave until August but it’s in CT, which means I’ll be moving home and to tell you the truth I’m dreading that part of it. I love my mom and pops and their gorgeous home, but I’m freaking out about leaving New York and not being able to have a real independent adult life for a few months (and maybe even longer if this temporary editor “job” turns into a job.) The only thing that keeps reassuring me to go ahead with this position is the experience I’ll gain. Graduation is making me feel all over the place, so I feel you!!

    And am I a dreamer?! Hell yes!! It took ballz to apply to NYU because I never thought I’d get in, but it’s my inner dreamer who told me to say f- it and here I am, graduated!

  31. 32 lowandbhold

    Can you believe that I’ve never been to California OR NYC. It kills deep parts of my inner being. I must right this wrong sooner rather than later.

    That being said. Miami is where it’s at for me. Of the cities I’ve been to anywho.

    You’ll figure it all out love. You are smart, funny and amazing and your place is out there just waiting for you to slip into it.

    And rap is totally poetry.

  32. 33 Amanda

    Ah uncertainty is something that tends to make me pretty anxious. I imagine that you will thrive wherever you end up, so just follow your gut! If you are truly torn, apply to jobs on both coasts and see how it turns out!!

  33. graduation is a funkay funkay time in all of our lives. i picked three cities i wanted to end up in, and lo and behold, i’m living and working in my numero uno! (dc). things will go your way, you just have to will them too. how was that for wordy?

    the best summer of my LIFE was summer 2007. my friends and i still refer to it, as if it was a phenomenon. new york city, 20 years old, dancing all the time. i miss it.

  34. Hey! I have no idea why it took me so long to find your blog. I’ve spent a fair amount of time over the past several days reading a lot of your past posts (as study breaks, obvi), and I think you’re awesome! You keep doing what you’re doing, and I’m going to keep reading. πŸ˜€

  35. 36 Obre

    Long time reader, first time commenter disclaimer…but I had to comment because oh man I know exactly what you’re going through! I’m graduating in two weeks (today is my last day of college classes ever! whaaaat??!) and I’m trying desperately to figure out what I want to do with my life. I’m moving to San Francisco over the summer for a internship (sounds familiar) in video editing and marketing, and then we’ll see what happens from there. I don’t currently have a place to live, but yeah…it’s gonna be great! And really %$^^& scary!

    At this point all we can really do is dream, right? Something I’m dreaming about right now is starting a blog of my own. You ladies are all so great, and have such amazing blogs, that its a little intimidating! But I guess that’s one dream I can actually turn into a reality so I should probably just do it haha. And if its any reassurance on the job front, everyone I’ve talked to who somehow scored their “dream job” didn’t even know that it existed when they graduated. So there’s totally hope for us!! Good luck girl, keep dreaming!

  36. 37 elise

    fondest memories = cali timezzzz (not very specific since ive only been east costin’ it for 3 yrs, but whatevs)

    roy g. biv – i almost just died at that line. love it!!

  37. 38 Michelle

    I’ve been struggling with how much I should include boys in my blog. I feel like they do affect my life a lot and provide a huge thrill, but I don’t know if everyone wants to know about my, um, adventures.

  38. 39 lo

    i cant even describe how awesome this post is…so many TWWS refs! BTW I hate creamy stuff…i.e ranch, blue cheese, cottage cheese, real mayo, sour cream…call me a weirdo but white creamy stuff grosses me out. Wait, that sounded bad too…damn, Kale my mind is getting dirtier by the sec…anywaysss, if ur in San Fran this sum, I am visiting. That is not a maybe, or a might…but its a “Im Coming, 100%, For Sure, to San Fran” hope thats ok with u. obvs it is πŸ˜‰

    xoxo
    lolo

    p.s. funny how we both enjoyed lots of nut butter yesterday…it was just a nutty day i think. gah. nuts. dirrrty…. ok. me and my dirty mind are done. lmao

  39. LONDON.

    and although my comments have not been novel length, i’ve loved every last nugget you’ve written as of late.

    love you.

  40. I am a huge daydreamer! Huge! I am always plotting what’s happening next. Keeps me sane, I think. I think my favourite memories are in Sheffield (England) where I went to uni, followed closely by New York where I’ve been a few times but had one of the wildest two weeks of my life once!

  41. 42 Clare

    London definitely has all of my fondest memories. Its my favourite city, I remember visiting the first time and it just felt ‘right’.

    I can really identify with you about making the “next step”. I’m due to start university this September, and as excited (esp. as it means I will be living in London, yay!) as I am, I am freaking terrified that I’ve made the wrong choice. I keep trying to avoid the things that I need to practically need to do before I move there, like apply for accomodation, because it will make my choice too ‘real’. I think I just need to take a deep breath and grow a pair, as I know that my heart tells me that I have made the right choice (maybe this is why I am finding it so hard, I’m normally a listen to head not heart kinda girl). I hope you find the confidence to make a decision – believe in yourself!

  42. 43 Erin

    I’ve been to SanFran & New York but somehow in the summer Chicago is where it’s at. I am a total East Coaster at heart. Born and raised in Baltimore! I ❀ NYC and go there every year the weekend closest to December 3rd to celebrate my b-day with the woman that birthed me. It is beautiful. It is amazing. And I don't care what anyone says, it is THE CITY. The best city in the whole world. SanFran is gorgeous and unlike any other city I've ever been too, but would never beat NYC in the ratings. But my favorite city, and the one I would choose to live in as a reasonable (probably questionable), economical, 28 year old worldly woman, would by far be Chicago. It has everything a City needs without the $$$ that SanFran & NYC have.

    Oh, also the hottest guys. For sure. Not that that matters. But go to Wrigleyville on any given game day and…YES!

    PS: Baltimore is a totally amazing city as well.

    PPS: I now live in Detroit, and don't suggest it as your next destination πŸ˜‰

  43. 44 Erin

    Oh, and my nickname in highschool was Spacecase, so you be the judge on the whole dreamer thing. Yeah, my head is in the clouds.

  44. 45 Elyse

    It’s crazy how similar our career goals are. I’m a dreamer like no other! I’m a Mass Media major/Theatre minor with intentions of becoming a Theatrical Publicist in either California or New York (I live in Cali right now). In 2008 and 2009, I got to live my DREAM by traveling to New York City nearly a dozen times (all-expense paid!) to work with several amazing Broadway actors. I got to write, market, plan, network, and have FUN! Up until my first trip to NYC for this job when I was 18, I had never ever been outside of Southern California. So I will NEVER forget the out-of-body feeling and surrealism of driving down 42nd street and seeing Times Square for the first time. It still remains the single greatest moment of my life–and not just because it’s huge and famous, but because it represented all my hard work, doubt, and struggle to get to that place. I couldn’t believe that I was EXACTLY where I wanted to be at that moment. Honestly, there is no greater feeling than being precisely where you want to be, doing precisely what you want to be doing. It’s indescribable. I’ve now seen dozens of Broadway shows, been to the Tony Awards, worked with award-winning actors that I’ve idolized for years, and roamed the streets of New York innumerable times…all before the age of 20!

    Now I’m interning back in Southern California and trying to figure out how to get back to NY permanently, or at least for a couple years. Finanacial problems have halted my school and work careers, but it’s just a hardship that I know I’ll get through.

    Having read your blog for several months now, it’s clear that you are a girl with a passion for writing and you won’t stop until you get the career you’ve dreamed of. Don’t stop. You may think “How am I going to get THERE??”, but you will.

    Here’s one of my favorite quotes when doubt creeps in:
    “Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you’ve always imagined.” Henry David Thoreau

  45. 46 Erica D

    I grew up in Connecticut and spent my summers in Colorado, so continuing my westward expansion has always been my dream. For a while now, I have designated my ultimate destination as SEATTLE!!

    (Partly because it’s on my bucket list to work in a coffee shop. Or a book shop. Maybe both at the same time!)

  46. I have no idea what I am even doing this summer, I am so lost haha.
    I am most fond of Los Angeles, so diverse and so much to do!

  47. I was only there for a weekend, but undoubtedly I still find myself dreaming of New York. Maybe someday I’ll live there, until then I’ll just enjoy live in the thriving metropolitan city-that-never-sleeps in the land of Minnesota.

    (Joke. For those of you who don’t know, Minnesota is sometimes considered rural.)

  48. 49 homegirlcaneat

    First of all, I NEED YOU IN SAN FRANCISCO WITH ME. That is very obvious though. I seriously laugh out loud by myself when I think of the ridiculous things we did, the hilarious conversations we have, and the WONDERFUL burritos we ate. That vegetarian burrito and guac is enough to get you back to the bay.

    Secondly, I cannot wait to have this conversation with you in person about the evolution towards food, I feel, we both have gone through in the past years! The fact that I can order french fries, consume them at an absurd speed, and have no guilt is a WONDERFUL thing that I forget about on the reg. When I find myself beating myself up about it, I think, wow… remember when I actually COULD NOT eat a french fry? I can do whatevah the EFF I want now and feel awesome. POWER TO THE PEOPLE.

    LOVE YOU! 8) 8) <—- us on Ocean Beach this summa.

  49. 50 mamaj

    My favourite city of all time is Toronto. San Francisco has the same feel that Toronto has so I would be very much at home visiting you. My dream is managing my daughters career in the near future. NO PRESSURE.

    • 51 Sara

      I visit Toronto frequently, but never been to SF… LOVE seeing new cities, and can’t wait to see SF! Thanks MamaJ for pointing out the similarity I didn’t even know existed between these 2 fabulous cities!!!!

      Oooohh.. Toronto meet-up?!

  50. i know just what you’re going through! i graduated from college a week ago and have been feeling that “you need to find a job and not be a boomarang child” pressure all semester. Try not to think too hard into it if you can! Just keep applying to jobs, keep talking to your friends/fam about your career hunt, and something will come your way soon i just know it! This blog is great exposure for ya, so no fears my dear, keep doing your thang.

    I’m definitely a dreamer. My dream cities would be NYC or somethin in Australia. woot woot.

    PS i love your moms comment lol

  51. I’m not a dreamer by nature, but nine years ago my heart said I belonged in Portland, Oregon after only visiting for a few hours. I moved out here as soon as I graduated college with no job and just what I could fit in my car. Absolutely no regrets and I wake up happy every day knowing I’m in my favorite city. You’re at the perfect age and time to follow your heart and the rest will fall into place.

    • Omg Andrea that is so inspiring!! I have soo much respect for you right now, doing that takes guts! πŸ™‚

    • 55 snackface

      Andrea- This helps me immensely. Thank you so much for sharing that. I’m pretty confident where my heart wants to go, I just need to DO IT.

  52. 56 dmcgirl37

    I loveeee NYC! Fondest memories there ❀ Im in FL now but I know ill be in the city in a few years. I came down to FL to do volunteer work but my heart and family are back north!! Im always nervous about the next step but I know it will work out in the end. So happy you found a way to be at peace with your body and food! you are amazing girl!! thanks for all your inspiration!!
    Dana
    http://happinessiswithin.wordpress.com/

  53. 57 Jil @ Peace, Love & Munchies

    The city that holds my fondest memories is by far, Paris – but a close second is Los Angeles. I feel…I feel the need to get outside of my comfort zone…hence…my want to leave the East Coast for the West Coast…specifically the Golden Coast. πŸ™‚

  54. Girl, my life is WAY up in the air right now.. in all aspects (school, life, career, manfriend…) but you know what? It’s EXCITING. Scares the crap out of me but it’s exciting. For so long, my life was structured.. I had been with the same guy for YEARS and so I just KNEW (ha!) we were going to get married, I was going to be a teacher and live in suburbia with a little house and kids and picket fence and all that. All I can say is, thank the LORD the direction of my life changed. It’s scary but I honestly could NOT be happier, at all.

    Dublin and Ireland in general is my favorite city/country. I went there 5 years ago and fell in love with it. It was the most amazing week of my entire life. And I can’t WAIT to go back.

  55. 59 Emily

    It’ll all come together somehow, no worries. I think this may help make life a little more clear though: http://www.slashfood.com/2010/05/11/falafel-and-hummus-world-records-set/

    Perhaps try and out-hummus these people? That sounds like a good career path to me.

  56. I’m a BIG FAN of Washington D.C. I spent last fall there through American University’s Washington Semester program. That city taught me that I can enjoy city life (thought I was a country-esque girl forever) and thrive! Even though I’m not too far away, I really miss it now! Especially when I’m in my tiny college town.

    Yes I am iffy about the future! I’m hoping to take a trip to Austin, TX (pretty much my dream city at the moment) in October to get a better idea of the area and possibly apply for some jobs. But I’ve also wanted to go to New Zealand for the past year and that dream takes just much (if not more) money as moving to a new city after I graduate next spring.

    Quandry!!

    So yes, I am a dreamer. Actually National Geographic Adventure has my all-time favorite magazine tagline: Dream It. Plan It. Do It. πŸ™‚

    You can do it Kailiey! Either San Fran or NYC would be happy to have you. πŸ™‚


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